Reasons

There are good reasons that I haven't blogged in so long. Well, maybe not good ones but reasons, for sure.

It's difficult to explain but, basically, my energy has been going into survival-level functions: getting up in the morning, making it through a work day, dealing with the issues to and from the office, dealing with the issues with our steward, ... I realize that there really is no adequate way to describe it. So, let's just say I haven't had any emotional/mental strength to do even basic blogging.

There have been many times when something bizarre/absurd-but-normal-for-life-here has occurred and Jim has said, with great enthusiasm, "you should put that on your blog" and I've agreed ... and then done nothing. So those stories are gone from my brain at the moment but they might be retrievable at a later time. 'hope so!

We've been here almost 3 years now. I've been in my job for 2 1/2 years. And we've decided that the only way for the two of us to be able to survive here any longer is for me to leave the job. It's a job that is, well, impossible to fulfill after all -- helping ex pats and returning Nigerians to be happy here?!!! What was I thinking!!? I can't manage another's happiness. I can't even manage my own! We've had terrific and irreplaceable experiences but "happy" is not a word that would often fit. Joy in the midst ... surely. Hilarity ... often. Sightings of God's grace ... always!

So, I'm emerging out of the fog and beginning to breathe again. Tomorrow is my last day on the job! Any time something totally absurd happens today it's just a clear reminder that I'm making the right choice.

Then, very soon we'll be flying to the U.S. for a month! Wowie zowie!! Yippeeeeeeeeeeeee!